I find myself at times, uninspired, I have a very busy daily life, I home educate 4 children, I am a house wife, I clean, I cook, I do all the things a grown up does . And I struggle to find the time to draw and paint, or even be inspired. I am always surrounded by unfinished work, half of a drawing, pastel smudged papers, watercolours unfinished. I find that more annoying than an empty page. I look at the half finished pieces and remember my inspiration at the time, but cannot capture it again. I sometimes long for a studio, where I can leave them lying around so I can see them more often, where my pencils don’t need to be put away, and paint stains and splashes can be left.
Unfortunatly I don’t have one, and so my drawings get packed into a box, until I can find the time to get them out again, I’ve always wanted to be a recognised artist, but I know honestly I don’t have time, I don’t invest enough time into it as a career, I havent “paid my do’s”. My life is too busy for me to be a full time artist, I’m barely part time, on paper.
But in my heart I always will be, I think of drawing every day, I see an amazing sky and think, how I would love to paint that, or the sea and I want to capture that on paper, I take mental notes of these things, and promise myself when I am older, when the kids are grown, when I have more time, I will build that studio. I will spend my time drawing and painting. Bu until then, I will do all I can in my “spare time” . I will continue to expose my kids to the art world, and inspire their creativity, and I have to say my daughter shows amazing promise, she is one talented 12 year old !
Until my free time, I am a mother, educator,wife, and all the things Inbetween, artist last. And I’m happy with that. There are many parts to a person, being an artist does not have to be all consuming, it’s just one part of myself, and I’m sure many people are the same. It’s what makes each artist different.